Infamouly

Bright sides of madness

I’ve made home in the light of madness. It’s comfort ad warmth wrap around me and become a second skin. It make me wonder why I fought it for so long. When you accept the impossible you have a world of opportunity. The grass is green Tr sunshine hotter and I drift to sleep in the noons warm embrase. I feel silent for I have nothing left to say beauty is hopeless place makes a pact of jubilet glee in my heart.

Right now I don’t feel alone. He’s done this before. But it stops with me. He won’t do this again him or his friends.

not-brokenn-just-bentt asked: Talk to me please I know exactly what your going through dont kill yourself please talk to me

im not sure what more i can do.

let take a vote

take another bottle of pills see f this time it helps and kills me of just go to bed miserable replaying every moment of the rape every momeny of every beating since i was 4 every hateful word everyones ever said and try so hard to think of a reason to live…hmmmmmmmm?

You shaped the way I think of men

That’s why the first ruined me he was as close to you as anyone one could be.

Ph did I mention I think I love you

im not sure i will ever know

how can 10 minutes feel like a life time? or how someone you you never have met shape your entire romantic views? how can a little booze bring out feelings you have never wanted to admit to your yourself? sitting alone talking to creatures in your brain who are telling you thing you dont want to but need to hear, you will find clarity in a moment of haze. the brilliance of a light can only shine for so long. beauty fades. but your soule remains. im sappy and calm while writing. my heart swells at the thought of my dreams coming true. it only takes a second and im back to the fanastys of you. how brilliant would it be if our dreams became a reality, would you be able to settle for you everything youve always wanted or the moment  you reached that would you keep wanting more? i think of the fingers on your hand and wonder if they would fit between mine. how glorious it would be to see you smile in real life. to touch you once i think might just kill me o to view the light of your eyes that in no way is reflected in the photographs you take, i only know of this light because i can feel it in my heart. but i know if i never improve upon mself soon it will be tolate to ever have you, to be close to you to let you know that i feel kindredly to you. i know i am no where close to god enough which is cliche to say but so true. im no where close to the image in your mind of what is meant for you. but you have shaped me since i was young in everything i think i want. or think i need. or i think will complement my sappy soul. i want to say i love you, but i dont think i can ir will  be able to for the fact of unworthyness

Three Stages of Acquaintance Rape:

1. Intrusion- Attempt by the offender to violate the victim’s personal space and level of comfort. May draw close by revealing personal information or through “accidental” touches and stares.
2. Desensitization- Occurs when the victim feels comfortable with the offender and has come to regard intrusive actions as no longer or, at least less, threatening. The victim of the desensitization may feel uneasy but convinces himself or herself that the feeling is unfounded.
3. Isolation- The offender uses the victim’s trust to isolate him or her from others.